Home.
Bram leaned back in his chairpuff and savored the idea of it, as he had done for most of his life. When he had been a small child, it had been bright, real, and immediate. Later it had become an abstraction, an impossibility. The adult Bram had known too much to believe in it. Now it was tangible again.
From the wooden corridor outside his apartment came the sounds of revelry: Bobbing Day celebrants on their way to the All-Level Eve festivities in the Forum—some of them already tipsy, by the sound of it. Mim was in the next room, getting dressed. Shortly she would join him, and they would go down together to be a part of the merrymaking. A year-captain could not afford to be absent.
But for these few moments of solitude he could think about home. For that, after all, was what the annual tree-turning celebration was all about—though it had grown lately into a tradition of its own.
Home.
Thirty-seven million years ago there had been an intelligent species that called itself the human race—Original Man. They had dwelt, by all the evidence, on a planet of a yellow sun in a rather isolated galaxy that they called the “Milky Way,” part of a sparse cluster consisting basically of two big spirals and their attendant swarms of small satellite galaxies.
Whether or not human beings still existed there was impossible to know, of course, when the very light that arrived from the Milky Way was thirty-seven million years old. But it was unlikely in the extreme. It was to be presumed that those humans were long extinct—gone the way of other species before them. Or that in the immensity of time they had evolved out of all recognition, into some new species that could no longer be considered human.
But before they had vanished or changed, they had left their mark on the universe.
The heights they must have reached had been dazzling, for they had learned how to tame whole stars and squander their energy. The energy, in unimaginable quantities, had been spent on the ultimate purpose of every species—to perpetuate itself.
Only this species had defeated the final enemy—the witless yawn of time.
Transformed into radio waves, the energy had been sprayed in the direction of the local universe that contained the richest clusters of galaxies—galaxies by the thousands, each containing hundreds of billions of suns.
It had taken all of that thirty-seven million years for the radio waves, expanding at the speed of light, to reach the galaxy where the Father World resided—a sprung spiral that those far-away, long-ago humans had known as the Whirlpool. There, a race of intelligent decapods who called themselves the Nar had intercepted the radio waves and deciphered them.
And a treasure trove had spilled out.
The lessons in genetic engineering alone had transformed the Nar civilization and given it abundance. Terrestrial starches and sugars had provided cheap energy and construction materials in the form of cellulose and exotic plastics. The bioengineering techniques, adapted to the Father World's life forms, had boosted the food supply and led to a host of biological devices that had taken the place of inefficient machinery. The genetic blueprint for a fast-growing tree called a poplar, included in the kit, had paved the way for the great living spaceships like Yggdrasil which plied the spaceway at up to one-seventh the speed of light and, with their world-size environments, made interstellar exploration at last practical and inexpensive.
But the centerpiece of the great Message was the genetic blueprint for humankind itself.
A mere millennium later—a drop in the bucket of cosmic time—the Nar bioengineers had created the second human race and nurtured several generations of it. A modest cultural package included in the Message had even given the new humans the sketch of a human society to enclose them.
Bram closed his eyes and remembered what it had been like to grow up as a small human child in a world of frondlike giants who towered so far above a little boy that even their girdle of waistline eyes—the closest thing to a face that a Nar possessed—loomed higher than his own eye level.
To be something between a house pet and the echo of demigods. To be loved and pitied as someone whose physical limitations would forever bar him from full closeness in the Nar touch group that had adopted him, and would forever bar him from full membership in the wider Nar society beyond.
For humans were handicapped. By their nature they were unable to speak the Great Language in all its tactile richness. Humans had to make do with the crude unenhanced sounds of the Small Language, or their own Inglex or Chin-pin-yin. And they were painfully short-lived. They died after only a century or two, long before they could earn the honorifics that would gain them an adult's place in an adult's word.
Still, he had been cherished. The new people born aboard Yggdrasil would never know what it was like to have Nar touch brothers.
Bram let the noise of the revelers in the outside corridor fade from his consciousness, and let the old memories wash over him.
“Bram-bram, guess what?” Tha-tha had said to him that day, in the blend of Inglex and the Small Language they used when speaking to one another.
Tha-tha was Bram's favorite touch brother, even though you weren't really supposed to have favorites.
“What?” he said absently, staring longingly through an oval casement at the sunny world outside.
It was a splendid morning, early in the season when the lesser sun left the night sky and spent most of its time in the day. The bay was bright and cloudless, the sky a vivid lavender blue, and Bram could see the sparkling water, full of Nar bathers and colorful little V-winged pleasure boats.
He turned to contemplate with disfavor the beehive chamber where he and his touch brothers had their lessons and naps. Ranged along the far curve of the wall were the miniature tilt-top body readers against which Tha-tha and the others pressed their outspread upper tentacles—the star-shaped upper surfaces scaled down to child's size—and his own little desk with its reading screen and big-buttoned board that took the place of the others’ touch pads. There was the toy box, filled with baby things that most of them professed to have outgrown—the spongy alphabet-letters for Bram, and the pyramids and cones and involute spheroids of various textures, and the small furry, mock-alive things that went through their limited tactile sequence when you squeezed them in the right place.
Two of the young decapods were wrestling, roiling boisterously around on the floor, their stubby little tentacles entwined as they tested one another's strength. Roughhousing like this was apt to go on when there was no big Nar around to supervise them. For the moment, the old foster-tutor, Voth, had left them to their own devices; they were supposed to be quietly using the touch readers or otherwise usefully occupying their time, but it was hard to concentrate when the weather was so fine and the smell of the salt ocean was in the air, and the whole world seemed to have gone swimming.
Bram gave a tragic sigh. Lessons were all right, he supposed, but some days it was better to be outside.
Tha-tha sidled closer to him, piping happily, “Voth says I can have my own grownup-size reader! And library access to grownup touch scores—the easy ones, anyway. And a real composition matrix!"
“You're too little,” Bram said scornfully.
Actually Tha-tha, during the past year, had shot up a full foot above Bram's mop of rust-colored hair. But the slender decapod form did not yet outmass him, and besides, in Bram's perceptions, what really counted was eye level, and Tha-tha's five mirror-eyes, equally spaced around the narrow waistline from which upper tentacles and lower limbs sprouted, still only came to somewhere around Bram's ribcage.
“No, really. Voth says I'm getting very proficient. He submitted one of my toccatas; and they said that even though it wasn't full span, it used areas just like an adult!"
In his eagerness to communicate, Tha-tha had wrapped one of his tentacles around Bram's forearm, and Bram could feel the velvety nap of the limb's underside writhing with effort.
"I didn't see what was so special about it,” Bram said stubbornly.
Bram knew that Tha-tha was very talented—the most talented of all the younglings in his group. Bram had tried to Understand the little toccata that Tha-tha had composed, and had stretched himself across the five-pointed star of one of the readers to let his human skin sample its rippling patterns of cilia movement. But as always, the meaning had eluded him; it had only been something that tickled in structured rhythms.
“Anyway,” Bram said, casting about for the perfect squelch, “it was nothing but a lot of squares inside squares that kept marching off the edge. I can make a touch reader do that!"
In fact, Bram had an unusual facility with the Great Language for a human of any age. He was able to manipulate a cilia board well enough to reproduce a few basic commands, and when Voth absentmindedly pressed a limb against his skin, he was often able to recognize some of the simpler morphemes, like numbers.
Tha-tha said, with a baffled earnestness that showed in the slow beat of his tentacle lining, “But it's not the shapes that count, Bram-bram. You can have outlines with nothing inside. It's the meaning they enclose that's important."
Bram felt all the blood drain from his face. He was numb all over, as he had been the time he had slipped on a sheet of winter ice and come down flat on his belly and had all the wind knocked out of him.
“It is so the shapes that count,” he insisted feebly. “You can tell lots of things from the shapes."
Tha-tha belatedly remembered that he had been admonished by Voth to make allowances for his four-limbed brother. He damped down the cilia movement in the tentacle that held Bram's arm and concentrated on the fluting sounds of the Small Language coming from deep within his central gullet.
“Never mind, Bram-bram, Su-su didn't understand it either.” He gestured with a couple of spare limbs toward one of the wrestling brothers. Su-su was squealing in simpleminded triumph. He had his opponent pinned, with all five of the upper tentacles wrapped up in a tight bundle by Su-su's encircling grip and the lower limbs off the floor, flailing wildly for purchase.
Bram's features screwed up, and he found himself ready to cry. Tha-tha, trying to be kind, had just made it worse. Everybody liked Su-su, but he wasn't much in the brains department. He had trouble doing the simplest arithmetic and, Bram gathered, even the Great Language had been slow to develop in him. He communicated in the Small Language and in tactile baby talk, and it was obvious that Voth was becoming concerned about him.
“Leave me alone!” He jerked his arm out of Tha-tha's grasp and stomped over to his desk reader. It was the only one with a vision screen. The others’ touch readers didn't need them, Tha-tha said, because the Great Language, even in its juvenile form, provided a sort of perception that was like pictures, only better—just as it was faster to count in the Great Language with its racing ranks of cilia than on a human-style keyboard. The visual cross-connection had something to do with the way the Nar brain worked. Bram's touch brothers were capable of appreciating the pictures of his vision screen, but most of the time they watched them without much interest, just to be polite.
Savagely, Bram punched buttons almost at random, but his small fingers were cleverer than his rage, and he found himself looking at some of his favorite sequences from the history lessons about Original Man.
Here were the human race's achievements in all their splendor and glory, as imagined by human artists with the help of computer reconstructions drawn from clues in the great Message, and interspersed with everyday scenes of the Father World and its family of planets.
Bram caught his breath at the sight of the shining cities as they must have been, with their pyramids and cathedrals and the cloud-reaching spires that were very much like the tall calcified spirals of the cities that the Nar had grown with the aid of humankind's bioengineering legacy.
The pictures shuffled, and he saw the forests of giant trees grown on comets in the deep beyond the Lesser Sun. And the living spaceships derived-from them—great twinned hemispheres of foliage and roots, hundreds of miles in diameter, voyaging to the nearer stars.
And here was a simulation of a star itself being enclosed in a sort of sphere—the supposition was hazy—and its energy being transformed into the radio waves of the human Message and traveling across the void between galaxies. The Nar themselves couldn't do anything like that, and would not be able to match such power for tens of thousand of years, if ever.
And now there was another uniquely human glory—music. The scene shifted to the concert hall that the Nar had grown for their wards in the human Compound. The camera panned across the rapt faces of the audience as they listened to a scrap of their heritage—a grand songfest called “The Messiah,” which had been lovingly reconstructed from the computer readouts of the Message. A mighty chorus of human voices rang out, singing "Wonderful! Marvelous!" in recognizable Inglex, while tears rolled down the faces of the listeners.
Bram was fighting his own tears. He put his palms flat against the screen, trying to absorb the experience directly.
Nothing! There never was! Only the hard smooth surface of the screen with the miniature people in it, and the massed voices coming from the speaker. It could not compare with the touch symphonies that so entranced Tha-tha and kept him stretched out on the star-shaped body reader for hours—and that he had tried without success to explain to Bram.
Bram gave a choked sob and felt the hot tears come.
What good was it? What good was it to be a human and talk with your voice, when the Nar could talk with their whole bodies? It was only sounds ... or symbols which, when you came down to it, could always be transcribed into sounds.
He began beating on the machine with his small fists, screaming and kicking at it while his touch brothers stopped what they were doing and stared at him in horrified silence.
Tha-tha warbled tentatively, “Bram-bram."
“Go away!” Bram screamed. “Go away, all of you! I hate you!"
He was still having his tantrum when Voth came in. The old teacher stood in the tall doorway regarding the scene, his cluster of upper limbs writhing thoughtfully. Tha-tha ran in a five-legged scramble over to him and whispered something with one outstretched tentacle, Voth dipping an upper limb to listen.
“All right, Tha-tha, you can take your brothers to the beach now,” Voth said aloud in his deep tones. “I'm putting you in charge. Tell the door proctor I said it was all right."
As the little decapods swarmed confusedly around Tha-tha and flowed in an intertangled mass out the door, Voth went over to Bram and swept him up in his tentacles.
Bram made a great gulping sound. “Oh, Voth!” he sobbed.
“Hush, little one. It's all right."
He let the little boy cry himself out in his warm clasp, then set him down and lowered himself to eye level. “How would you like to go to the observatory with me and see our friend Jun Davd?” he said. “We can take a ride in the bubble car and buy some polysugar candy, and Jun Davd will let you look through his telescope."
Bram rubbed his eyes with both fists. A small coil of rebellion still burned within him. “I want to go by myself,” he said.
Voth acted not at all surprised. “You've never traveled alone before,” he said. “It's a very long way to go. You'd have to ask directions in the Small Language, make yourself understood. And—” He paused delicately. “Since you can't imprint your Word directly, you'd have to use a credit transfer device, and use it correctly."
Bram said stubbornly, “Jun Davd is my human friend, and I want to go see him by myself."
Voth thought it over. “All right. I guess you're old enough. But promise me to be careful."
Bram hugged Voth around the middle where the skirt of walking members flared outward; the waxy integument was smooth and unyielding, not at all like the warm fluffy lining of the petallike arms. “I promise,” he said.
“There are no human conveniences after the departure terminal,” Voth said, becoming brisk. “Jun Davd will see that you're fed. Remember not to eat anything till you get there—not even polysugar. Not even if some well-meaning person offers you something. Many of the Folk do not realize that human and Nar chemistry are different."
“I know, Voth."
“Here's a touch token for when you get on the bubble car. Do you know how to make it say what you want?"
Voth handed him a small flat wedge with one ciliated surface, the kind Nar used in special circumstances when credit delegation was more convenient.
“Yes,” Bram said. He demonstrated with a deft flutter of fingertips. Numbers were easy.
“Good. Even a lot of grownup humans never learn how to do that."
He escorted Bram down the spiral ramps to the street; this was an old defunct orthocone whose lower septa had long since been scooped of life and its nutrient pool filled in, allowing a ground-level entrance to be added beneath the original overbridge. He hailed a pentapedal carrying-beast and gave it detailed directions to the terminal before lifting Bram to the passenger howdah. Bram looked about eagerly. The white sun-bleached spires and filigree bridges of the city spread endlessly and magically before him; he had every intention of countermanding Voth's instructions as soon as the beast was out of sight, and doing a little roundabout sightseeing on his way to the terminal. He knew he could do it. The transport creatures responded to voice as well as touch.
A string of bubble cars passed overhead on their invisible cable. Bram gawked at them, hardly able to believe that soon he would be traveling in one without supervision, just like an adult Nar. Even Tha-tha had never been allowed to do that.
“I'll call ahead and have them tell Jun Davd you're coming,” Voth said. He tapped one of the upright limbs that formed the framework of the howdah and Bram felt himself rising high into the air as his vehicle straightened its five stiltlike legs. A moment later the beast was trotting down the causeway that led toward the terminal. Bram turned back once to wave to Voth. The old decapod waved back in imitation of the human gesture. Bram thought that somehow Voth seemed sad, but he couldn't imagine why.
“Do you think we could look at Original Man's galaxy now, Jun Davd?” Bram asked.
“In a little while,” the tall man said—tall for a human, though Jun Davd would hardly have topped Voth's brachiating midsection, even on tiptoes. “But first I'm going to give you some lunch."
“I'm not hungry, Jun Davd, honest.” He looked around impatiently at the enormous chalky chasm that housed the observatory's big eye. Massive machinery loomed overhead in steel cradles. The interior extruded convoluted catwalks of polycarbonate that reached every nook and cranny. Across the immense floor was the eye itself, a great bowl of living jelly that seemed to Bram to be the size of a swimming pond. Aproned Nar attendants, some of them wearing optical girdles, glided silently about, seeing to its needs.
“I promised Voth-shr-voth I'd feed you,” Jun Davd said, smiling down at him. “Don't worry—your galaxy won't go away."
Bram smiled back. Jun Davd was very nice, with a kindly, creased face that was several shades darker than Bram's, almost the color of stained wood. His hair was a bush of pure white. He was old for a human, and had risen as high as a human being could go—to a shadowy status somewhere between an apprentice and an intern.
“All right, Jun Davd,” Bram said. He took the slender gnarled hand and let himself be led from the fascinating chamber to the cubbyhole where Jun Davd worked and lived amidst a clutter of instruments and a spartan few personal possessions.
They were stopped several times along the way by Nar personnel who wanted to greet the little boy and inquire after the absent Voth-shr-voth. During the past year they had become accustomed to the sight of the human child who was brought by his Nar guardian from time to time to be shown some of the distant wonders trapped by the big eye's living system of mirror optics, and to be given some rudimentary tutoring in astronomy by Jun Davd. Voth-shr-voth was held in high esteem, and every courtesy was extended to him—though why he was encouraging a fruitless interest in astronomy in his human ward was unclear, since Voth himself was renowned for his bioengineering achievements, and presumably if he wanted to make a place for the boy, he would do it in his own touch group.
Bram presented the palms of his hands to meet the proffered tentacle tips and answered their inquiries gravely and politely. A nudge from Jun Davd reminded him to add the honorific; it was hard to remember that the eminent Voth-shr-voth was the plain old Voth whom Bram had known since his nursery days, when his own principal gene mother, mama-mu Dlors, had given over the largest part of his care.
Even the observatory's director, the venerable Pfaf-tlk-pfaf, showed Voth a special deference. Voth was several centuries older than the director, and near to the time of his Change. Bram didn't know exactly what the Change was, but it had something to do with why you hardly ever saw a lady Nar, except for the rare infirm and draped individual being carried in a biolitter, and why there was no such thing as a little girl Nar, only touch brothers. Bram had asked about it, but Nar grownups were always evasive, the way mama-mu Dlors always changed the subject when he asked how human babies were assembled.
“Pfaf-tlk-pfaf is very busy now,” Jun Davd told Bram, “but perhaps he'll be able to see you for a few minutes later on."
“And then will he show me the galaxy of Original Man with the big eye?” Bram asked.
“We'll see. The big eye is doing some very important work at the moment—a survey of the heart of this galaxy, the one we live in."
“But you promised."
“All in due course. First, lunch."
A short while later, Bram pushed away his half-finished bowl of chimerical soycorn porridge and wiped his lips on the damp cloth Jun Davd gave him. “All through,” he said.
“Would you like a sweetcrisp?"
“No, thank you. Can we see it now?"
Jun Davd went over to a keyboard that had been haywired to a Nar touch pad. An oval screen lit up with fuzzy visual patterns generated by an interface program that Jun Davd had written himself. No one but Jun Davd could make sense of it, but Bram had resolved that some day he would learn to read it, too.
“The big eye's still busy,” Jun Davd said, “but I can give you the last stored view. We swung that way about a Tenday ago."
Bram was disappointed. “I wanted to have a really now look, not a picture."
Jun Davd laughed. “You couldn't tell the difference. Anyway, there's no such thing as a really now look. The light from Original Man's galaxy left there thirty-seven million years ago, and the images are all processed one way or another."
“I can so tell the difference. It isn't the same thing."
Jun Davd's expression sobered. He squatted on his haunches to look into Bram's eyes. “I understand, Bram. You want to feel that you're seeing the actual light of home. But even the big eye only collects photons one at a time and assembles them into an image. Do you understand what I'm saying?"
“I guess so,” Bram said reluctantly. He brightened. “Could we see it with your telescope—the little one?"
The telescope that Jun Davd tended in an adjacent structure was small only by comparison with the big eye; it was a huge drumlike object mounted on rocker beams. With it you could see the planets of the lesser sun, and even the gas giant that revolved around Juxt, the closest extrasystem star, almost a light-year away.
“No, it's too small,” Jun Davd said. “You know that, Bram. I've explained it all before. Compared to the Milky Way, even our neighbor galaxy, the Bonfire, is practically next door. The Milky Way is so far away that when the light we detect first left it, there weren't even any Nar here on the Father World—just the little seashore creatures that were their ancestors. So we can never see Original Man's galaxy as it is now."
“We could if we waited another thirty-seven million years,” Bram said reasonably.
“I guess we could at that,” Jun Davd laughed. “Come around then and I'll show it to you. In the meantime..."
He busied himself at the human-style keyboard and a sea of stars appeared in the oval screen. After a lot of jiggling, a fuzzy dot centered itself, grew in size, and sharpened into the image of a feathery coil of light with a golden yolk at the center.
Bram caught his breath. Jun Davd had shown him more spectacular sights through the telescope, but there was none that caused the sudden gripping pain in his small chest that the sight of humankind's home always did. If he had been allowed to, he could have sat and looked at it for hours, making up stories in his head.
“Jun Davd,” he said at last, “do you think Original Man could speak the Great Language?"
The old apprentice looked at him sharply. “No, I'm quite sure he couldn't. They were the same as us, those prototype humans who sent the Message—or we're the same as them, with a few bad genes edited out, of course. Why do you ask?"
“They—they rose so high. Higher than the Nar. Everybody says so, even Voth. How c-could they, if they were like us?"
All of sudden salt tears were rolling down his cheeks. He tried to stop them and smile at Jun Davd, but the smile only made things worse.
Jun Davd took him by the shoulders and turned him gently around to face him. “What happened today, Bram?” he asked softly.
Between sobs, Bram told him about Tha-tha's promotion to an adult touch reader while he, Bram, couldn't even understand a toccata on a child's reader. About the growing facility of his touch brothers in the Great Language while he himself had a growing sense of being left behind. About the feeling of increasingly being left out of things, even though Tha-tha and the others always tried to remember to speak aloud for his benefit.
“I see,” Jun Davd said grimly. “And you wonder what kind of place the world holds for you, especially when you look around at older humans like me and see the limits on how far we can go. I know how you feel, Bram. I was a protégé of the old director—the one before Pfaf-tlk-pfaf—just as you're a protégé of Voth, and even though he was very close to the Change when I was growing up, he saw to it that I was firmly established before his final metaplasis, and Pfaf-tlk-pfaf has honored his wishes. On the whole, it's been a good life—the best, I think, that's reasonably possible."
Bram flung his arms around Jun Davd's neck. Hugging a human being was different than hugging a Nar. Human beings had bones that you could feel through the skin. “Why do I have to be different, Jun Davd?” he wailed. “I asked Voth once, and he said it was because I was made of human stuff instead of Nar stuff."
Jun Davd disengaged him gently and held him at arm's length so that he could look into his face. “Voth-shr-voth was right; you're different just because you're a human being. That doesn't mean you're better and it doesn't mean you're worse. Only a different sort of person. That's why Voth started to bring you here to the observatory when he first saw that you were interested in where humans come from—so that you could have some sense of your own heritage and be proud of it, not think of yourself as some kind of flawed Nar. I think it would break Voth's heart to have you apprenticed here instead of with his own touch group, but he was willing to take the chance of losing you so that you could be happy and fulfilled."
“I'm sorry I cried, Jun Davd."
“That's all right, Bram. You cry whenever you feel like it. That's part of being human, too."
“I thought that ... maybe if Original Man could speak the Great Language, I could learn how someday, too."
“They reached the heights their own way, Bram. The human way, not the Nar way. And whatever heights the second human race reaches here in this galaxy, we'll do as humans, too."
Bram looked at the tiny glowing helix displayed in the viewer. “I'm going to go there someday,” he said with a child's seriousness.
“You know that's not possible, Bram. We've discussed it often enough. We can reach a few of the nearer stars within a human lifetime—though we'd be very, very old by the time we got much farther than Juxt or Next. And the Nar can travel about ten times farther within their lifetimes. But the limit will always be about a hundred light-years—maybe a few thousand light-years within our own galaxy if we ever learn to travel at relativistic speeds. But that's a lot different from crossing the void between galaxies—especially galaxies that aren't even in our own cluster. No, child, it's a fine thing to be able to look through a telescope at these distant objects, but they can never be reached across an ocean of time, any more than you or I could return to our own egghood. Voth wants you to be happy in your life. And that means making your way here, in the real world, as best you can."
It was one of those adult speeches that Bram had learned to shut his ears to. His eyes had never left the golden spiral in the screen.
“I didn't mean right now, Jun Davd,” he said complacently. “I meant someday."
The someday never came. Bram became immersed in life. As his touch brothers outdistanced him, he spent more and more time with friends from the human enclave and shared their purely human concerns. By adolescence, few of the humans had much in common with their Nar touch brothers anymore, and Bram was no exception. Tha-tha made an effort to keep in touch with him—still peeled down his waxy outer integument and unfolded his inner surfaces while they jabbered away in their childhood patois of Inglex-laced Small Language—but Tha-tha had his own Nar life to live, a life that grew ever more incomprehensible to Bram.
It didn't matter. Bram, full of the juices of youth, had the heady excitement of human society to sample. All around him was a ferment of art, music, literature, fashion-people busily assimilating the sketchy outlines of human culture as it had been transmitted in the Message, and building on it. People doing things!
He left mama-mu Dlors’ nest and moved into the bachelor lodge. He was on his way to an adult life with new freedom to explore. He forgot childish dreams; the visits to Jun Davd at the observatory became less frequent and finally ceased entirely. Astronomy was a dead end for humans anyway, as Jun Davd's example had shown. Bioengineering was where the honors lay—where there was a hope of practical results that could have a recognizable impact on the miniature human communities scattered through the Father World. A human named Willum-frth-willum had even been granted a Nar-style honorific for his contributions to the development of viral monofilament, and then had gone on to achieve celebrity among his fellow human beings for recreating additional terrestrial life forms, such as the tomato, by working backward from existing genes of human foodstuffs included in the Message. There was an old human saying to the effect that the invention of a new sauce contributes more to human welfare than the discovery of a new star; how much more important, then, was it to bring more variety to the limited human diet? When it came time for Bram to make a career choice, Willum-frth-willum's shining example was already there before him.
So Bram made his adult compromise with life. Voth's bioengineering touch group had always been waiting with open tentacles to take him in as a sponsored human; he was under the mantle of the great Voth-shr-voth, after all. But Bram proved to have a natural talent for the work, and soon he was holding his own. He had a greater affinity for the Great Language than most humans—he could even manipulate a touch reader well enough to call forth basic menus, and could find his way around the files with a minimum of help. In no time at all he was given greater responsibility, formed genuine working relationships with the Nar juniors, and was allowed to run his own subprojects.
Bram threw himself into his work; it was solid and useful, gave form and purpose to his life, and gave him status in the human community.
He avoided Jun Davd; he could not have said why. Every once in a while he would find himself staring at the blank patch of night sky that contained the faraway galaxy of the first human race. But you couldn't see anything without a telescope. Bram would shake off an obscure, nagging sense of loss—a feeling he was not willing to examine—and allow the realites of daily life to absorb him.
There was a brief affair with Mim—but they lived in two different worlds now. He was part of the larger concerns of the Father World—minor though his role at the biocenter was. Mim had withdrawn more and more into the purely human ambience of the Compound, where a feverish minority of Resurgists tried to ignore the Nar civilization that supported them, and worked to recreate a semblance of an imagined human past. Eventually Bram lost Mim to an older man—Olan Byr, a musician like herself, who had made a name for himself as a tireless interpreter of the old music.
In due course, Bram formed a relationship with an exciting young woman named Kerthin, a sculptress with some radical ideas about human ascendancy in the sea of Nar that submerged them. Bram was entranced by her; he tried to show her that his thinking was as advanced as hers, but she laughed at him, told him that he was stuffy and conventional, but that she liked him anyhow.
Bram was ready to settle down by then; he formally proposed a visit to the gene co-op with Kerthin. Preliminary gene mapping had given him every reason to hope that the two of them would be allowed to contribute a preponderant number of their genes to a composite genome and rear the child as their own. It would be the final step in the settled existence he had contrived for himself.
But Kerthin was evasive. She teased Bram about being too complacent. There were still great things to be done, she told him. She was not ready to settle down.
For the human race had reinvented politics.
The human population of the Father World, small as it still was, had grown to the point where it supported a remarkable number of factions, calling themselves by such names as Partnerites, Schismatists, Resurgists, Ascendists. Kerthin's friends were a fanatical splinter group of the staid, old Ascendist party.
Unwillingly, Bram was drawn into the conspiratorial schemes of Kerthin and her friends, at first only to keep an eye on Kerthin, and later to protect a startling secret he had uncovered through his work at the Nar biocenter.
Human beings were meant to be immortal!
Bram's unusual facility with touch readers had provided the key. While rummaging through the old files, he had discovered that the original human genome constructed by Nar bioengineers was incomplete. A codicil to the great Message of Original Man, received some fifty years into the second cycle of the transmission, had contained instructions for a synthetic virus able to infect human cells with the disease of eternal life. The tailored DNA had the ability to insinuate itself into human nucleotides and turn off a “death gene"—-a genetic switch that expressed itself after a certain number of cell generations. The information had rested in the files for a thousand years—either unrecognized, or interdicted because of environmental dangers associated with it.
Bram shuddered to think what Kerthin's wild-eyed friends might do with such information. At best they would use it to inflame human passions, to put an end to the trust between human and Nar. Bram did not believe that the information had been hidden on purpose. He believed in the good will of the Nar, and he waited for the opportune moment to bring the matter up with Voth. But first he wanted to be sure.
While Bram was still trying to decide what to do, a starship arrived from Juxt One. Aboard it, having traveled for seven years, was the Ascendist messiah for whom Kerthin and her friends had been waiting.
His name was Penser, and what he preached was a mindless violence that he described as a “cleansing.” The universe belonged to man by right, he told his disciples, and could not be shared with the Nar. He dismissed Nar largess. “To share is weakness,” he said. “To accept is weakness.” He advocated taking by force what the Nar were giving voluntarily. On Juxt One he had stirred his followers to acts of sabotage in which Nar had been killed. The abortive revolution had been hushed up by the horrified human settlers, and had not been recognized for what it was by the peaceable and unsuspecting Nar. Penser had fled under a false identity stolen from one of his disciples.
Now Penser proposed to hijack one of the great living starships and, with a few hundred followers, use it to take over a thinly inhabited moon of Jumb, the gas giant orbiting the Lesser Sun. The small Nar population there would be deported—killed if they resisted; the human colonists, Penser believed, would have no option but to go along with his plans once the deed was done.
The takeover would be accomplished before the Nar on nearby Ilf, the Lesser Sun's principal inhabited planet, realized what was happening. After that, according to Penser, the Nar commonwealth would accept the situation to prevent useless further violence.
“They'll let the humans have their one little world,” Kerthin assured Bram, mouthing Penser's words.
The seized moon was to be the focal point from which humans would crowd the Nar out of the cosmos. Penser intended to step up the human breeding rate without bothering about gene editing. Humans could easily outbreed the Nar. “Do you realize that the human population of the universe could be doubled every twenty years?” Kerthin had said, her eyes shining.
Other worldlets would be taken over, one at a time—each as an accomplished fact to be presented to the Nar, with the dust allowed to settle between conquests and the Nar encouraged to believe that this time was the last. Penser had studied the ancient history of Original Man. Hitler, Napoleon, and Alexander had failed because they had bitten off more than they could chew. By the time the Nar woke up, Penser said, the human race would be ready to swallow Ilf—even scour the Father World itself!
But the starship hijacking went horribly wrong. The Nar, with a casual swipe of their great powers, put a stop to the mutiny and took all the humans aboard into custody—Penser's followers and innocent passengers alike, making no distinction between them. Bram was one of the innocent bystanders caught up in the net.
It was very bad. Penser was dead—a suicide. But there were dead Nar, as well. Among them was Bram's old tutor, Voth-shr-voth.
Voth's death was a particular atrocity to the Nar. He had died under torture when Penser's henchmen had attempted to force him—as the space tree's acting biologist-to override the tree's tropisms and make it spread the leaves of its light-sail on a course to the target moon.
Worse than that, Voth's death had interrupted the final flowering of his life—his terminal change from male to female. All of Voth's budding children had died with him when he had failed to reach a breeding pool in time.
The Nar had not understood until this time that their pets could bite. Their civilization ground briefly to a halt while they met in one of their grand touch conclaves to decide what to do about the human species.
Tentacle pressed to tentacle, radio sleeves linking the parallel meetings on all the nearby worlds, the entire Nar race became a single immense organism whose process of deliberation passed human understanding. The humans at the center of the vast tribunal—a sea of living Nar that stretched mile upon mile—waited and shuddered.
It was the Day of Wrath.
The humans were heard. When it was Bram's turn to speak, he told them about the immortality virus that had been withheld from all the generations of reconstituted man, condemning humans to short, unfulfilled lives in a long-lived Nar society. He told them of his childhood dream of returning home—home to the distant, unreachable galaxy where the first human race once had dwelt, and from which the tremendous Message of Original Man had been sent. His touch brother, Tha-tha, emerged from the packed throng to speak to him directly, and perhaps to intercede for him. “It is true, then, Bram-bram,” he asked sadly, “that all your life you felt you had no place here?"
All around Bram, other humans were simultaneously unburdening themselves to the collective Nar consciousness: Partnerites telling of their struggles to be accepted in a society that saw them as ephemeral mutes; Resurgists admitting why they had given up and surrendered to a daydream of past human glory; even some Penserite radicals attempting to explain why they had been driven to violence in their effort to find a place for humans in a Nar universe.
Perhaps the Nar had never before realized the depths of human alienation and anguish. But they were getting an earful now. The sea of tentacles seethed. Bram could not read what was happening out there. No human could. But he could sense a great surge of sorrow and revulsion, distress and pity.
The human race might get off lightly, he dared to hope. The present generation might be allowed to live out their lives comfortably—under closer supervision, of course. It was even possible that the human species need not vanish from the universe a second time; limited breeding or in vitro gene assembly might keep a few dozen specimens around as curiosities for future generations of Nar to gawk at.
But the Nar, in a huge tide of nonmammalian empathy, were more compassionate than Bram could have imagined.
When the verdict was announced, the human race found that it had been sentenced to immortality.
The Nar had no use for immortality themselves; for them an eternity without aging and what lay at the end of it was an eternity without fulfillment. So perhaps they simply had not realized what such a gift would mean to humankind.
Bram was put in charge of a human-run project to reconstruct the virus; the Nar, with exquisite tact, had recognized that this must be a human achievement, not an act of charity. It would be the work of years or decades, even with Original Man's blueprint. For Bram would have to find an alternate route to the same result to avoid the biological dangers associated with the immortality nucleotides—dangers that, some thought, may have contributed to the demise of Original Man.
But immortality was only part of the Nar gift—a means to an end. With the complete gift, the Nar gave Bram back his dream.
The Nar species was on the verge of an enormous technological leap. Travel between stars, until now, had meant riding the worldlet-size space-dwelling trees that were part of Original Man's bioengineering bequest. They had replaced the first crude boron fusion-fission starships of the Nar's early space age, and could travel at up to one-seventh of the speed of light. With them, the Nar could spread slowly from star to star and hope to populate the galaxy in a million years or two.
But only recently a conceptual breakthrough had raised the possibility of a relativistic spacecraft that could reach the core of the galaxy in only fifty thousand years. With it, the Nar could do on a smaller scale what Original Man had done so grandly—use it as a robot beacon to broadcast their own genetic code to the billions of stars that would come within its range, If the probe hit the jackpot only once or twice, then the Nar race could spread from new foci, sending brothers among the stars who would be waiting to greet them.
To this lofty purpose, the Nar species had allocated a tremendous share of the wealth of their civilization. The robot spacecraft project had been given a timetable that might make it a reality in only a few centuries—a fraction of a Nar lifetime.
Now, in an act of stunning generosity, the Nar decided to speed up the timetable—and bequeath the relativistic engine to the human race.
With it, those humans who wished to—the restless ones, the unhappy ones, the adventurous ones—could return to their mythical home in another galaxy. The trip would take thirty-seven million years of real time, of course, but it had been calculated that by traveling within one hundred millionth of one percent of the speed of light, the time dilation factor predicted by the theory of relativity would have a value of approximately seventy thousand. So to the travelers, the journey would seem to last only about five hundred and forty years.
And when you had eternity to play with, that didn't seem like too high a price to pay.
To reach that tremendous terminal velocity—to become pregnant with enough kinetic energy to coast between the galaxies in a fuel-less void—the ramjet craft would first have to dive to the heart of the departure galaxy, gulping the rich H-II clouds as it went, then let the gravitational center of the galaxy sling it above the plane and out into emptiness.
So it all worked out to everybody's benefit. The humans would be able to do the Nar's little chore for them on the way home.
One problem remained. Robot ramjets were not very hospitable to life. They were hot! And even if a way were found around that problem, there was still the question of living space and a reliable supportive environment for a substantial fraction of the human race on a trip that would last for more than five hundred years.
How would it be managed?
It was simple. The spacecraft would tow a tree.
Mim appeared in a stunning green off-the-shoulder party dress with a five-pointed hem that, though it was a bit old-fashioned compared to some of the newer styles, suited her very well. Over it she wore a short pleated chlamys that left her right arm bare—an old cellist's habit.
She bent over the chairpuff and kissed Bram lightly above one eyebrow. “What are you sitting here brooding about?” she said.
“Oh, I was just thinking about the Father World,” Bram said, getting up. “It seems very far away now."
“It is far away! Tens of thousands of light-years away!"
“Which means that tens of thousand of years have passed since we left. We're in their historical past, Mim. After only a couple of decades of travel. I wonder if they've forgotten us."
“Not a chance. The Nar never forget anything."
“All the Nar we knew are dead now. But there ought to be some fifty-thousand-year-old humans that we used to know walking around. I wonder what it's like to be fifty thousand years old. We're still under a hundred."
“And getting younger every day,” she reminded him.
“Yes. I wonder if fifty thousand years is long enough for a human being to learn the Great Language. Jao swears that it's possible, with cortical transplants, electronic interfacing, and prosthetic touch sleeves."
“It must be a very different society from the one we grew up in,” she commented.
“We'll never know,” he said. “The people who stayed behind made their choice and we made ours. Speaking of which..."
He inclined an ear to the noise in the outside corridor. Some drunk was singing a Bobbing Day carol—off key—and his friends were making it worse by attempting harmony. Mim winced.
“Yes, we're developing our own traditions, aren't we? How would you like to try to explain All-Level Eve to the folk back home?"
“It's all very natural to the younger set. Mim, do you realize that there are children who've been born on Yggdrasil—who've never known anything else? Some day they'll outnumber us old-timers. By the time we get to the Milky Way—"
She took his arm. “Right now we'd better worry about getting to the Forum. It wouldn't do for the year-captain to be late."
He smiled at her and drew her a little closer. Together they stepped out into the corridor and let the crowd carry them along.